Er and repeat

Saturday symptoms seem to remain the same as Friday, with no worsening leading us to believe this is the aneurysm pressing against the esophagus now. Well we have made it this far with no real symptoms being this was completely unknown just month ago. Of course, I was hopeful we could make it to surgery day without James having to feel any sort of discomfort. Then again I never want him to feel any symptoms of any kind, ever. It breaks my heart to see him struggle to eat now. He explains it as a sort of food getting stuck feeling in his chest. I have felt that before and I hate that he has to feel this EVERY time he swallows now. It’s just temporary, and repeat. 12 days to go and my emotions are getting the best of me today. I can’t help make this all go away. That’s my job, to help. I have nothing. I just have to suck it up for him and be strong, so I do… everyday. And repeat.